Hello, my beautiful Lalas and Rainbow people! I am back and this time with my review about what Shenzhen Stories: Pride, as you should know, or maybe not, I was one of the speakers this time! Yes! I was so nervous but I did my best to tell my story about how I came out of the closet, you will find soon the podcast of it on the official website: Shenzhen Stories SoundCloud I hope you will enjoy it!
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My afternoon started very well when, at 6pm, I joined my very good friend Addie for dinner and after we took a slow walk to the coffee shop where Shenzhen Stories is hosted. There was a big “PRIDE” drawing on the wall, the environment was charming and relaxing, I was, of course, excited and nervous all at once. The first speaker joins, she talked about her family and how proud she is living in a more modern China.
I was the second speaker to join and after a shot of tequila, Viva México, I was brave enough to stand in front of the people and share my story, which I will share the draft bellow with you:
“Love has no shape” That was the answer that Guillermo del Toro gave when asked why the title of their movie “The Shape of water”, he said love comes to us without a specific form. I was in high school the first time I saw her, I was 15 and she was 17, her hair was reminding me of a sunset, her honey eyes were innocent. That was the shape of love for me, a girl, a woman and it felt great, every time she would hold my hand, she kissed my check, I can still remember her perfume, I was so nervous to talk to her than when we were finally introduced I called myself Lauren (My name is Laura), I came back the next day with bigger shoes (I wanted to be taller!). No one told that was love, no one told me it was ok to feel that way and when my mother found it my whole world fell apart, suddenly I was too young to know, it was just a face, she was a bad influence, my parents were getting divorce so for sure I was just trying to get attention and if I was willing to find a boyfriend I would see that was right for me and I did, I found a boy who I broke his heart’ the moment I went to collage and met another woman that just smile at me once! A woman that I also wasn’t able to be with because I was so scared and ashamed of myself, I denied to know her when my friends asked who she was. Love had the shape of a woman and I was running away from it, I was trying so hard to represent it that I ended up in China. The “Love has not shape” and it was at 24 when I understood that it was up to me to be happy, so I wrote one page letter to my mother, the most important person in my life, and I finally said it, as clear as I could “ I am gay and I am still the same daughter you rise me to be” that day also my mother learn that “love has no shape”.
As you may notice, once you hear the podcast, I changed few things because when standing there in front of all those people perception changes and memories come back to you, however, this will give you guys the general idea of my story.
In the end, I think I was able to share my view of this world, where we can be free of love who we want!
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